‘By the Thames’ 1996

When I was 25 I was dumped by a girl who, despite not really having a lot in common with, My personal circumstances just made me want to cling onto her for dear life.

My father had died in 1994 and my mother was terminally ill and I tried to grip and hold & hang onto this….pretty attractive but ultimately rather cold and impersonal creature. I think it was the only time in my life I’ve ever been completely irrational about anyone. She wasn’t a terrible person, but not interested in me and had I not been dealing with bereavement I’d have moved on with far more aplomb Im sure.

I found this old college scan from when I first started photography and it sadly shows how utterly fucked up both myself and my perspective were.

Oh well… time moved on…Thankfully. I like the naivety of this photo…. at the time I thought I was a fucking poet…Jesus!